hi im new to this board

well hi to our new member...

i have read some of the posts here and just felt the need to say that thanks for all the people who postsed and to xcello. i know this sounds strange but i felt better atfer reading some of the posts, maybe it was because i dont feel as lonely knowing there are normal people who are feeling the same way.

thats the whole goal I guess...even if people dont post here very often, if everyone leave a part of their own story, well it might help future people who will come here to read and search for similar case too...just like you ... The more comments we have, the more people will ba able to see themselve through this forum. Well Im sure many people here, even if they dont post a lot, at least enjoy the reading

i feel better now but i still feel loney, but the thing is i dont really know why. i live in a small town where its very cold most the the year. and sports is a huge deal.i go to a small high school size of about 200 students. i play football and start. i have alot of "friends" in school. i mean im part of the popular "group". but out of school i only have like 3 "friends" that i hang out with. i met them through football, and yea they r really nice, but i think they are way too typical of the small town football jock and thats just not me. so everytime i hang out with them i feel a need to act differently or be more sporty i guess and i feel liek they care more about how well or how bad i play football rather then me as a person. and the things they do just dont seem fun to me, but they are haveing a ball. and most of the time i feeling like im just there watching. i feel like i dont have anyone who actually cares about who i am. and they seem to always get the girls and some how i am left out and idk i always worry about getting a girl becuase i never had a girlfriend or whatever and that makes me sad to think about

Well you know, having 3 friends is really more than enough...but if you have to wear a Sport Mask in front of them, I wonder if they will really end up being your true life friends...I think not, but thats just me...Well anyway...its really weird...you see, you said that you're part of a popular group and all...that you have friends...but still you feel lonely...I guess its a proof that once again, loneliness is a part of every humain being...even if they seem to be happy in life and all....Well, not being the "sport type" myself, I wouldnt really know how you should react in this situation (I prefer to stay home and do nothing), but if you have to play a role to be accepted (well, life is just One Big Play, but still), I guess, yes, there's something wrong with that...People should just accept you the way you are, like you accept them the way they are...a relation should never be unilateral, because ultimately, it only bring pain and sadness to one side..

Well anyway, how old are you??? You seem to be still young, you're still in high school after all...you shouldnt worry too much about not getting a gf for now...seeing that you're in the popular group...sigh...you're destined to find someone sooner or later...you still have time (when you'll be like me, 23 years without the love of a girl...I guess now that would be...hard to endure...but while you're at school, at least, you have tons of things to think about...so just dont drown too deep yet...you still have time to suceed in this field...)

Anyway nice to meet you for now

Edited by: xellos667 at: 1/20/06 7:29 am