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(7/20/05 12:49 pm)
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~The Woman Within~
An entry from my Online Journal, The Woman Within
momsunitedorg.bravejournal.com/
Ok, I admit it. I am somewhat old fashioned and traditional. I do understand that what works for me and my family may not work for you and yours....
My domestic side had been put on hold for about 5 years. After being a Stay at Home Mom, I found myself a single mom thrown into the working world. There were many ups and downs along the way. I learned many valuable lessons. Yes, I could take care of both me and my daughter. Yes, I could be successful in a career. Yes, I could work my way up the corporate ladder and make a name for myself in the working world. The journey itself was one heck of a ride, and the experiences taught me as much about myself as it did life.
Here I am, now....trying to reconnect with my more domesticated side. I am now happily remarried. I left my career to work part time at a job that fulfills me and gives me more time for my family. As a child, I was one of those little girls that truly dreamed of being a wife and mother. It brings great joy and satisfaction in my life. What I did not understand when I was a SAHM before, was that I am entitled to being more then a wife and mother. I am learning now to incorporate who I am as a person into my roles as wife and mother. I enjoyed being at home with my little girl, yet I knew in my heart that something was missing from my life. That something missing was me. We all suffered the consequences. By neglecting myself, my needs, my desires, I actually ended up letting my family and myself down. I didn't realize it at the time, of course, but I was not the wife and mother that I could have been....
I feel that life has given me a second chance. Second chances do not come around very often, and this one will not be wasted. I have grown up so much in the last fews years. By learning to live a more authentic life, I am finding that we are all much happier.
Like I said, the life that works for me and my family may not work for you. I get such satisfaction after working with my client a few hours each morning and picking my daughter up by lunch time. The look on her face to me is priceless and confirms that I have made the right decision in leaving my former career in the business world. I can tell such a huge difference in her and in her behavior. I love getting back in the swing of things by cooking dinner and yes, actually meeting my husband at the door when he comes home from work. I cherish sitting down at the table together as a family and reconnecting with one another.
This is my life, and this is what makes me happy. This time around I am wiser, more mature and am more aware of the pitfalls that come with the territory of being a caretaker by nature. I am learning to also take the time to take care of myself, while providing my family with a happy, warm and loving home.
I am learning the fine art of balance. It will surely take me a lifetime to perfect it. That's what our lives are all about...learning and improving as we go. A few steps forward, a few steps back.....for now I am going to learn to enjoy the journey.
In Friendship,
Jenn
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