End of my despair...
For those who had followed my story through all my my posts on many different topics...here's the conclusion of it
Well, I said somewhere else that it didnt work with the second MSN girl. The truth is, we have been talking for quite some time through every mean possible except physical contact. So anyway, long story short, the more we talked, the more she became affraid of a relation...and anyway, during Christmas times it ended with her saying that we will never meet, and that there wont be any kind of relationship between us. It was an hard pill to take. as always I cried a lot ...Anyway one month later, and we were still talking, but I was always affraid to hurt her even more with my talking...but yesterday, due to certain circumstance that I wont explain here, she told me that she was ready to have a love relationship with me...I couldnt believe it...it was just too good to be true...even now Im sure this is just all a dream...that a girl want me as her boyfriend...but it seems to be really true. Anyway for both our person reason (me because I never experienced something like that before), we agreed to take our time to develop this relationship, as I will help here going through "some things", she will help me learn everything I missed during my adolescence, step by step. A true mutal respect relationship...I couldnt be happier.
So anyway, I know that it may end sooner than I thought and all...But I couldnt care less..In a sense...now I know that Im worthy os at least someone. So my vision of life will never be the same. of course Im still shy...and the fact that Im going into a whole new uncharted world for me...well it really stressing me out. I dont know how I should act and everything...but I dont worry that much, so I know I cant count on her to be there to help me, like I'll be for her.
Anyway, with that, the last part of my heart that was a big void is filled. So I guess theres no reason for me to feel lonely anymore. So its true that I will surely be there less often...but as I can see since "him" arrived on this forum, it has kinda become active again. So I'm happy with that...I'll come here and then to post some comment of course...I cant leave this place like that...after all, it was my home during those dark times..
Wow Xellos, that's awesome news! I'm glad to hear that you feel worthy and you have something to look forward to, everyone should feel this way all the time.
I say enjoy the moment and what you have. If this is a long distance relationship then remember that it will be quite hard and you can't expect too much too soon, it will be hard work if it is an LDR.
I have read very small fragments of your story but one thing that I do know is that you are a great guy and you have so much to give to people, so I knew that you were a worthy and great person all along.
My advice: keep some space between you two and keep some you-time and don't underestimate the importance of this. I don't think you will be able to spend every moment talking or being together because if you try this it will wear you two out and it will be a sort of over-exposure.
Yeah make sure you keep in touch with the board, you've been a god as others have described and so the people need to worship you hehe.
I hope that when you do come back that it's for a good reason and not a bad one, I hope everything goes well for you and I wish you all the very best!
Re: End of my despair... Well as you may have guessed, it ultimately fails, as always, and in a way, thought it would be ok after that, even if it was to fail...but I feel just worse. Anyway, Im just too depressed right now to talk, but just wanted to let you know...maybe I'll come back a little later...but not right now....need some time to think about all that...A LOT of times Cya one day, and thanks for the positive comments you gave me...
It's sad to hear things didn't work out, I feel for you.
Hurt away my friend, it sucks so much but there is nothing else to do. Just remember that we are here for you and will do what we can to help you deal with the pain.
Ok, just make sure you remember that you're that great person we all see in your posts and that you should never lose sight of that, or of what it means for you - I know that you will find your happiness somewhere Xellos.
...Anyway one month later, and we were still talking, but I was always affraid to hurt her even more with my talking...but yesterday, due to certain circumstance that I wont explain here, she told me that she was ready to have a love relationship with me...I couldnt believe it...it was just too good to be true...even now Im sure this is just all a dream...that a girl want me as her boyfriend...but it seems to be really true. Anyway for both our person reason (me because I never experienced something like that before), we agreed to take our time to develop this relationship, as I will help here going through "some things", she will help me learn everything I missed during my adolescence, step by step. A true mutal respect relationship...I couldnt be happier.
Cya one day, and thanks for the positive comments you gave me...
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